Keterlupaan

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Semalam adalah hari huru hara. I've plenty of work that act I've to submit within this week. tapi biasalah, sukaaa sangat buat kerja last minit kan. eh, but it always turn out to be like that, menyesal la banyak kali pun, tapi waktu kerja yg paling efektif adalah waktu2 terakhir. no doubt =P  petang dlm pukul 6 lebih baru siap2 nak masak utk mak buka puasa. dah siap blender bawang semua, keluarkan ikan. sekali bila nak masak nasi, beras habis! abis nak makan lauk dengan apa? cicah roti? cannot3. macam mana ntah boleh tak alert dengan ketandusan beras... padahal hari-hari kot tanak nasi. #keterlupaan 1

Gambar sekadar hiasan, tapi cantik kan? ^_^

so we end up tapau makanan kat kedai. dah rasa mcm cuak time ni, sebab kerja tak siap lagi... tp kesian mak, dia tak boleh tak ada nasi. lg pun alang2 keluar boleh beli beras n barang2 dapur yg lain. ok la. dalam pukul 9 sampai rumah, makan-makan dan sambung buat kerja. last tengok jam adalah pukul 3.48am! rasanya la. sb dah mcm nak muntah time tu. tak boleh jadi, sila tidur please... set jam 5.55 am. tak agak2.

janji nak bangun awal sambung buat kerja. tapi biasa la, janji tinggal janji. bangun tadi, sambil buat kerja sambil tengok jam. buat semampu mungkin, dan dengan harapan boleh sent by email sebelum 9, dengan harapan jugak Dr tak buka lagi pc dia time tu. 8.26am, sent! sent bkn sebab complete semua kerja, tp sb dah tak mampu nak fikir apa dah.

pastu turun bawah, breakfeast lite2 dgn mak. sambil duk sembang dengan beliau, sambil duk scroll fb. pastu mcm pelik, asal ada update status psl bc surah al kahfi ni, pastu ada psl live kuliah jumaat. kejap2, hari ni hari apa mak? -jumaat la. DANGGGGGGGGG!!!

takkan la. takkan hari ni hari jumaat! bukan esok ke jumaat????? why syuhada? why??? buat kerja sampai pagi, dan dengan confident submit hari jumaat, hari cuti. tsk. keterlupaan apakah ini. i'm not even thirthy series yet, neither 50! i keep arguing my mom about this day, and end up with went to pasar pagi and enjoy our kuih muih n soon sayur air bayam, sedapnyaaa....! thats a nice story to be remember. i still cant brain myself about this keterlupaan. kan bagus kalau terlupa makan for few days, waah! sure drop few kgs too, hihi.

The gifts

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Satu perkara yg paling excited bila dapat jemputan kawen adalah ketika menyediakan hadiah kawen. i'm not having much money to buy a grand one, tapi selalu consider kalau boleh biarlah hadiah tu menggembirakan si penerima, useful etc2. sekecil / semurah mana pun hadiah, i'll put effort to wrape it nicely, pilih pembalut hadiah cantik2, bungkus elok2, kalau lebih lipat2 bg nampak class sikit ^_*  pastu senyum sorang2 tatap hadiah lawa, hihi.

Tapi apa yg kontra, i'll always felt like guilty when people give me a present for no reason. bukan tak suka, sukaaaaa sgt. tp rasa bersalah tu mcm ada sb we are not changing d present, kira tak menepati frasa u get what u give. except for teachers day, haha. time tu takpe, nak bagi banyak banyakkkkk pun takpe ;)  

as for last saturday, terlupa upload dlm entry semalam gambar ni. goodies from nik. banyak betul cik kak ni letak dalam paper bag dia. ada bunga telur, kepok segera, gula2, kekacang, and nail clips set. semua best. gula2 tu ada coklat udang, d most ultimate fav masa kecik2 dulu =)  

pastu dalam paper bag kertas happy birthday tu, from her aunt. not for my birthday, tp saje... saje. that was a great reason to be akward in receiving a gift. even i thanks her a lot, said that i love her present much much much, tapi dlm hati tetap rasa sayu... kenapa baik sangat? t_t semoga dimurahkan rezeki selalu... dan semoga kita akan terus berbagi untuk merasai erti hidup...

Nicks wedding

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Sabtu lepas, dapat jemputan kenduri kawen Nik, kawan kat smk sultan ahmad dulu. Her husband orang kuala lipis, kampung Tok Ti =)   Nik ni memang sgt nice in person, sama macam mak sedara dia-Wa, my scoolmate too but in Smaasza. We got to be classmate for a year in 5sn1. Nothing much to memorize between us, tapi banyak kali jugak pergi rumah nik sepanjang kenal dia, and as she always be nice, so d friendship remains :) love u nik!

Pergi sekali dengan zimah, followed by her mom. tu mak zimah yg comel sedang menjamu selera ^_^

masuk2 snap hantaran orang, heh. i always love to 'explore' the creative things like hantaran. 

nak2 lagi yang cantik berseri macam ni. suka! ^_^

hantaran from d groom. cantik kan? sebab tu snap dua kali, hihi.

sebenarnya simple je deco dia, tapi outstanding.

dengan pengantin cantik =)

kawan baik dari form 1 kot.

i love to see their friendship. since i got into d school,

i know that there are bestfriend. 

ada la lagi geng2 diorang, tapi kita citer yg attend kenduri ni je la ya?hihi

diorang ni, even form 5 terpisah kelas,

tapi tetap pergi sekolah balik sekolah sama2, sweet kan? ^_^

hope the friendship remains for more years...

dan ini wif 'mok wa'. my nice friend too.

suka kan dapat kawan dengan orang2 nice ni? harap2 bl dekat dengan diorang, kita pun jadi nice skali. ameen. with wa, even we are not so called BFF, but theres something that i depends the most on her, which i think i could never count on others for that moment. thank you wa! 

btw tinggi kan ank sedara dia? hehe.

thats the end of nik wedding.

rushing pengantin tak solat zohor lagi. so off we go.

hantar mak zimah dulu, dan ajak zimah jalan2 kejap, 

sebab tak sempat nak sembang lama pun dengan dia time kat rumah nik. 

pusing2 tak ada tempat nak dituju,

dari rumah nik, pergi pantai batu buruk,

lalu belakng my xschool smaasza,

pergi depan balik singgah kat kedai roti pcik abdullah.

i miss their bread product so much!

sedap2 sgt semua roti dia, lagi2 sweet bread.

sejak dari form 1 kot dah jatuh cinta dengan kesedapan roti ni.

sekarang lagi macam2 jenis roti ada,

rambang mata jap dengan zimah shopping roti ^_^

last2 macam dah tak tahu sangat nak pergi mana,

singgah taman tamadun islam.

tapi sekejap je, sebab sekarang maghrib mcm cepat kan,

tak pukul 6 lagi dah nampak mcm gelap.

lagi pun public holiday sempena awal muharam kan hari tu,

sangat ramai manusia spend masa kat situ,

yang pengantin duk outdoor photoshoot pun ramai,

if you can spot from d pic, theres a couple there tgh amik gambar ;)

Mummys birthday

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10.10.2014

My mom turn to 52 years old woman.
Nampak macam masih muda kan?
people yg ckp, as i'm not that nice to said that directly to her,
her doter adalah sgt jeles with her! =P

despite her sweet smile,
having a good health (alhamdulillah),
she is the one that suffered a lot in her life.
and the worst part is,
she suffered alone...

from a lil daughter in a family that depends most on her parents,
she suddenly has to be independent to gain a strength after her mom passed away (al fatihah utk arwah tok)
doing any job, any thing that can make money,
even it is not worth compare to what she has done.
at one moment,
she got faint at her workplace.
where am i than?

i'm still a little girl,
just blurring looking at moms friends who does visit her,
i always look my mom in a strong state,
so i wonder why that time mom was just lying on the bed,
whos gonna make me rice?
check my school thing?
.....

ok. i dont think i can continue to write our past...
she could just smile until now even i know she could be crying behind me...
she is not a drama queen at all.
never drag her sadness in front of me
she pretend to be strong, strong and strong,
even our life is not really wonderful as others...

besday mak kali ni,
i could not prepare a present.
so rushing to bake a moist chocolate cake.
dah rasa hebat sangat dah ni boleh deko cake dgn homemade icing n anggur, hihi =)
she love my cake very much, that the happiest part of a not so terror daughter ;)

oh since my mom never praise any good side of me in front of me,
she usually said it like this:

"hmm sedap lagi kek kita buat sendiri dr beli kat kedai..."
*insert tganu slang*

and she ate most of them! ^___^

and i said to her,
tu, satu lagi hadiah mok taun ni >>>

saadong.
or dong.

act his name variously changed.
at last, mummy berkenan sgt dgn nama saadong,
mcm best sgt boleh panggil brother kat ats ni saadong. haha.

tersangat jadi kesayangan mummy.
tp dia sgt tak lekat kat rumah skrg,
for last 2 weeks, tiap2 mlm tak balik!
sampai la semalam,
rasanya memang dia tak sihat sgt,
suara pun dah tak keluar...

letak dia dalam kotak,
dan tidur senyenyak2 nya.
kotak tu letak kat dapur,
so semalam sambil makan2 sembang2 kat dapur,
sekejap2 paling tgk saadong tidur,
mcm lama sgt dah tak nampak view comel mcm tu,
hihi.


btw,
happy birthday mummy!
love you unconditionally...
and please wait for me to give you what you should deserve...